Down the road

The day today is 25th of December 2010. Christmas day... i'm lying here in bed with the most beautiful music playing in the background and i can't help but let my mind wander the broken streets and dreams of my mind and heart. Its so weird, it sounds emo but its really what's happening right now. I barely post up in here, but today i just felt a need to type out everything, and whatever you're reading right now is just coming out with absolutely no pauses to think in between.

These broken streets that has pretty much been this past year for me i've kept away from my concious mind... i function on a daily basis disregarding all the immense pain i've felt this year. I'm at a point where i feel like i barely know myself anymore. Broken trust and a lot of anger that is pretty much existent, but not conciously i think.

As i'm letting my mind wander it keeps coming back to toward me... and i see where i've come to today.. What's strange is that i feel way more comfortable now then i have for my entire life.. its taken me nearly a year to heal up, and now i'm some other person. I doubt anything i'm typing will make sense to anybody but myself, but i don't really care nor do i want to try and make sense of these things...

I am letting tears fall too as i type this.. I know my blog account has been inactive for the longest time so barely anyone will read it, but like i said. I don't care. This is the only place i can write (type) and not have to worry about where i've left the piece of paper with all these thoughts lying around.

I can almost see you...
Almost.



Say..
Just say.

Wind,
waves,
rain on my face..
Oh such freedom..


I'm happy. But i never thought i'd get here.






Tim